In the dimly light room, a man still sweating from his long bike ride said, “Hi, my name is David, and I am an alcoholic.” The others responded with “Hi David.” We continued around the circle in the same manner until it was my turn, when I said, “Hi. My name is Amy, and I’m visiting tonight.” In their friendly, if not curious manner, the group responded with their staple, “Hi, Amy.”
For the next hour, I quietly sat in amazement as I witnessed the most broken and honest group of people I’ve ever encountered share their fears, failures, and measured triumphs with each other. They grew strength from their common struggle with alcohol. Eliciting a mixture of tears and laughter, story after story revealed a daily fight with temptation, the tragedy of broken relationships and unfulfilled dreams, and yet a hope for a brighter tomorrow.
While I haven’t struggled with the group’s particular temptation, I left the meeting painfully aware that I am missing out on something else those ten to fifteen people seemed to have. That is, a safe place where I can be completely vulnerable. A place where I can be honest about my darkest sins and know that I will be encouraged and not condemned by my fellow sinners. And what a shame that I haven’t often provided that safety for others along with me! The vulnerability, humility and trust displayed at that Alcoholics’ Anonymous meeting astounded me and made me hunger for the same within the church.
While in the particular AA meeting I attended, the participants seemed to focus only on their unity as fellow alcoholics, how great it is to know that our unity as brothers and sisters is based on so much more. For not only are we united in our sinfulness and brokenness, we are united through our redemption in Christ. It is through that common redemption that we can follow Paul’s exhortation: “Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ” (Galatians, 6:2, NIV). Perhaps we can follow AA’s example and start meetings together with, “Hi, my name is... , and I am a sinner redeemed solely by grace.”
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Good stuff, Amy. S & I were
Fri, 09/04/2009 - 23:16 — GL (not verified)Good stuff, Amy. S & I were part of a dinner tonight and one participant (and the chef) is a guy struggling with drug addiction. He told stories similar to yours, and I marveled at the honesty and freedom in brokenness.